question for my Lord

hesitate, yeah, simply, that's what I feels now, 

I don't understand what the purpose of all this,

is she having someone as called as boyfriend or not?

Please God, give me a guidance...is she for me or no?

As far as I know, she was nearly perfect, she having all of my criteria, same religion, same ethnic, good woman, mature, inspirational and beautiful.

Really, I hope can life together with her till me or her come back to Allah, certainly with Allah 's permission. 

Finally, I hope Allah can give me a guidance and best way to fix this problem, amin.